Monday, January 31, 2011

Clomid Cycle #3 – BFN…. UGH….

Yup… it’s official. I ended up not calling my nurse about IVF last week because I decided to wait this cycle out. At 10 DPO, I noticed that my breasts were really sore. They felt just like they did on my first Clomid cycle when I had the chemical pregnancy. So I did something I’ve never done before. I tested EARLY at 12 DPO… And it was negative… And I was REALLY upset. So I had a little bit of a melt down with my hubby. I cried a little and I felt better. I think that I was really upset because I just felt pregnant. I really thought that I was this time and I was pissed that I wasn’t. Mark told me that I should wait and test again at 14 DPO (yesterday) but I didn’t. I really didn’t want to see another negative pregnancy test staring back at me.
This morning I woke up, and guess who decided to make an appearance? Yup… my period. I wasn’t as upset as I thought I would be. I’m just ready to move on.
So I called my nurse as soon as I got to work. Guess what? She is out on leave! PERFECT!!! Exactly the news I wanted to hear! UGH! So I have a new nurse while she is out. GREAT. I did not want to explain to someone that I have never talked to before why I wanted to move from timed intercourse cycles to IVF. But I left her a message anyway and she called me back a little while ago. She said that after reviewing my chart, she doesn’t see any reason why I wouldn’t be able to move on to IVF if that’s what we wanted to do. I then spoke with the financial counselor and she is mailing me the applications for the Shared Risk and Shared Help programs. It looks like there is a possibility that we may qualify for a discount too! I will definitely keep my fingers crossed. Every little bit helps!
So that’s that! Nothing too exciting … but we are moving on. That’s all that really matters to me. We have to have some time to get all of our applications in for the IVF programs before we can get started so we are on a break this cycle. I thought I would be upset by this but I’m not. I’m looking forward to a little break. I know IVF can be emotionally and physically draining, so I think it will be good to take some time off before starting treatments anyway.
Mark asked me a little while ago if I was feeling comfortable with our decision to move on to IVF so soon. I told him that I’m nervous, scared, and excited at the same time. It feels so strange! It’s such a big step but I’m definitely comfortable with it. I just hope that the IVF paperwork process goes smoothly and quickly!